I’m afraid of everything these days. I feel like my life is stagnating. I try not to have to many woe is me moments but I suppose feelings and logic are mutually exclusive. Aside from the phobias I’m afraid of failing, its such a crippling fear that I find it hard to get anything started. It’s weird, I thought that after my dad died this feeling would go away but I’ve been living in fear of failure for so long that now that my abilities are no where near where they used to be I can’t move.
I don’t like thinking about myself now. I hate how weak I am and I constantly compare my present self to my past self and find my self wanting. I finally have the freedom to choose my own path all I need to do is be brave.
Today’s mix pretty much covers all my negative self talk. I hope that it helps you guys too.