Glasses, patches and blood tests.

I picked up my glasses a few days ago and l have to admit that it works well. The only problem remaining is that I need to wear an eye patch when l have to concentrate.

Trinidad doesn’t seem to have much variety when it comes to patches, so after failing a few times I went with Amazon.

I found these nifty glasses patches so now I’m waiting for them to be delivered.

On the PCOS front things have gotten worse. More menopausal symptoms. As if the set l had weren’t annoying enough.

If you have a problem with vaginal tears after sex, your vaginal muscles may be thinning. It’s painful and embarrassing but luckily it’s treatable.

The gynecologist l saw about it also gave me a referral for a fasting blood sugar test to hopefully rule out diabetes. The results of which l won’t see until next Monday. So there’s even more thumb twiddling.

Meanwhile, we can’t tell if my darling is improving or not. We can’t wait for the follow up appointment. The waiting is torture.

It’s not all doom and gloom though! The munchkin is getting christened soon. I can’t wait! I haven’t seen her in ages.

Alternate medication.

Recently I asked my doctor if there was an alternative to the Glucophage I’ve been on for the last 6 months or so. The reson being that the side effects were terrible. Chronic fatigue, constant diarrhoea, nausea and there was also metformin-induced lactic acidosis scare. My gynaecologist was adamant that this was absolutely the only medication that would work and after doing a lot of reading I determined that it was possible that the side effects would go away as my body adjusted to the dosage. I also found a lot of forums with women suffering from PCOS who couldn’t use it at all because the side effects become too much to bear. The Glucophage in question is Merck Serono’s 500mg film coated tablets.

At my last visit to the gynaecologist she suggested that I keep the dose down to 2 of the 500mg tablets per day and increase as needed. Sadly after the lactic acidosis scare even the smallest dose of Glucophage would set off the side effects and 2 weeks ago I begged my GP for an alternative. Which turned out to be Merck Serono’s 1000mg Glucophage XR. The Glucophage XR has significantly less side effects and its more effective in a smaller dose. He gave me a 2 week prescription to test it out and it was amazing! After the first day I was able to begin exercising again. No more diarrhoea, fatigue nausea or hypoglycaemia. The only hurdle I have remaining is getting my diet back on track. Since right now I don’t have the energy to exercise and cook.

If you’ve been having similar side effects I strongly suggest that you see your doctor about alternative treatments.

Frustration abounds.

So my health hasn’t improved much in the last 6 months. Mostly because my crappy immune system kept putting me down every time I started doing okay with working out. Like for instance last week I got gastroenteritis on Tuesday. Which you might recognise as being the day after I started running again.

Life can be such a cruel joke sometimes. Like the compulsion I have to eat starch thanks to my insulin resistance. I suppose addiction is a better word since there’s no better way to describe how I get if I don’t eat starch for a few days.

While I was puking my guts out on Tuesday the gynecologists’ office called to remind me that my 6 month follow up for the PCOS was last Thursday. Long story short. They hasn’t been much change and the reason is lack of exercise. You would not believe how annoyed I was when I heard that. I have been trying so hard for so long but to no avail. I never stay healthy long enough to reap the benefits of the exercise I do when I’m stable. Hell, my last bout of illness lasted 2 months. 2 months of feeling like I was on the brink of death thanks to some side effects among other things. Barely able to move or even stay awake.

How am I supposed to overcome these things? What do I need to do to start feing better? I’m getting to the point where I just can’t care anymore. I’m already severely depressed and the effects of the depression are made worse by the havoc the insulin is causing in my body.

Sigh…maybe now is a good time to find a psychiatrist.

So I’ve managed to have 3 good days yay me! Then my insulin spiked and I had to obey my body’s demand for glucose. It’s back under control though.
I believe I’m getting better at figuring out what types of foods work for me. Sure my choices are limited but I’m seeing real progress. All the research and experimentation is paying off. Not to mention I am aided by some amazing doctors.

It’s incredible how delicately balanced the human body is. With my insulin levels stabilising I can think more clearly and that gives me hope that I’ll be able to start doing something productive with my life.

At the beginning of this month I started my new treatment for PCOS. It pretty much entailed cutting out complex carbs and exercising. Sounded simple enough I told myself since I already workout a lot. Little did I know my heath would take an abrupt nosedive at that time. In the weeks following the new treatment plan, I have seen a nutritionist and contracted gastroenteritis. The gastroenteritis was of the viral persuasion so it was fiendishly difficult to get rid of. Not only that but the treatment caused my ulcer to flare up. I told myself that I’d be fine, I got through these things before so it should be a piece of cake.

Boy was I ever wrong. After suffering from severe stomach cramps, near constant nausea and explosive diarrhoea for most of the month. I realized that my motor functions seemed to be on the fritz. Not only that but the numbness on the left side of my head was spreading. The impairment of my motor functions was alarming because I still remember how terrible paralysis was for me.

It was off to the doctor again but this time he sent me for a CT scan of my head and sinuses. He believes that it may be either a side effect of my anti depressants or indicative of a serious problem. Either way it’s pretty disturbing. He also banned me from any exercise other than walking until we figure out the problem.

Walking turned out to be problematic since my skin just burns when the wind touches it. Annoying but there are perks. I love walking at around 4 am, its quiet, there are no people or cars and the air is crisp and clean. There are a few places I really love, like the school on the main road that has such a nostalgic scent. It reminds me of the garden in the house I grew up in.

I’ve decided to work on something positive to raise my mood. By positive I mean something that gives me some sense of accomplishment. Finding that elusive raison d’être may take some doing but I think that the journey will be worth while.

Later today I will be renewing my food logs as there hasn’t been any opportunity to do so in the last few weeks. I’ve been working up some guilt over it but it couldn’t be helped.

I hope that this week will be a better one. I’m collecting the results for the CT scan on Tuesday so there may be good news on the horizon.

Meal & exercise log: 14.03.2014

Breakfast (5.16am): 1 hops with 2 tbsp. tuna salad, 1 tbsp. mayonnaise, salad with lettuce, and tomatoes, 1/2 cup almond milk, 3/4 cup coconut juice.

A.M. snack (9.30am): 3/4 cup coconut water.

Lunch (10.54am): 2oz plantain, 4oz kidney beans, 1 BBQ drumstick, 4oz boiled potatoes, 3/4 cup coconut juice, 1 cup water.

P.M. snack (4.00pm): 14 grapes, 12 almonds, 1 cup water.

Dinner (5.00pm): 3inch sub with tuna, green pepper, pineapple, cucumber, tomato, onion in Italian bread with pepper, mustard and shadon beni sauce, 1cup water

Unplanned meals:

8.20 pm: Remainder of sub, 1 cup water, 3/4 cup coconut water

11.30 pm: 1 chicken patty, 1 hops, lettuce, cucumber, tomato, 1tbsp. BBQ sauce, 1 cup chai tea

Medication: 1 Pantecta 15 minutes before dinner, 1 Glucophage and 1 Fluoxetine after dinner.

Meal & exercise log: 13.03.2014

Breakfast: 1 hops, 1 slice deli turkey, 1 tsp. unsalted Kerrygold Irish butter, 1 banana, 1 cup green tea with 1 tbsp. agave.

A.M. snack: 1 banana, 1 cup of water.

Lunch: 1 baked potato, 1 BBQ drumstick, 1/2 cup stir-fried string beans and carrots, 1/4 cup kidney beans, 3/4 cup coconut water, 1 cup water.

P.M. snack: 14 red seedless grapes, 12 almonds, 1 cup of water.

Dinner: 1 hops, 1 GM chicken burger patty, salad with 1/2 cup carrot, 3/4 cup coconut water, 1 cup green tea with 1 tbsp. agave nectar.

Late night snack: salad with 1/4 cup kidney beans, 1 tomato, 1/2 cucumber, 1 cup green tea with 1 tbsp. agave

Medication: 1 Fluoxetine capsule, 1 Glucophage tablet with dinner, 1 sachet of Gesol with 1 litre of water during the course of the day (for the Gastroenteritis).

Exercise: None today.

Yes…yes it did!

I have mixed feelings about yesterday. On one hand it was the first time I waited 6 hours for a specialist that I paid for. On the other the likelihood of having surgery has gone down. Instead, I’ll be using a combination of Glucophage (to control my insulin levels) exercise and a low carb diet.

I won’t be starting on the Glucophage til I see a nutritionist though. The last time I went low carb, I got severe withdrawal symptoms from abruptly cutting out all carbs. I’m hoping that the nutritionist will have a way for me to do it without feeling like I’m going to die.

The theory is that if my insulin resistance drops, I won’t have excessive amounts of glucose causing my hormones to run amok. Which should bring my weight back down and reduce testosterone production.

The gynaecologist told me that my weight is not my fault since my diet and activity levels are good. That’s a refreshing change from my acquaintances who ignorantly state that exercise and proper diet must be a waste of time since it doesn’t work for me. They’re also quite happy to see me failing which is annoying to say the least.

The exam itself was not as scary as I thought. It was rather uncomfortable but that cleared up overnight. Next up is yet another trans-vaginal ultrasound to determine the size of my cysts with a follow up appointment in the next 6 months.

I’m glad that the news was good this time.